You know that thing where they tell you that you have to force yourself to write to get past writer's block?

I don't think that applies to blogging. I think it just makes blogs really boring.

Yep...


I *did* sign up for summer classes. Physics, Psychology, Sociology, Macroeconomics, and Spanish II. I literally have four weeks of my summer vacation completely free, and they're single weeks in between classes. The week after I finish summer classes, I start fall classes. The only good things are that 1) Macroeconomics turned out to be an online course, so no in-class time (which means I only have one class that I have to attend in that semester, too), and 2) I only have one class in the morning, the first summer semester, which leaves time for...stuff.

Yup.

I haven't seen my best friend since February, for instance. She and I have definitely been separated for longer, but it's just weird, when we have every chance to talk and see one another, with no parental constraints.

I've been in a couple situations where there were chances at relationships with people, but it would have had to be long-distance. I never understood why it was so scary, I guess, because she and I have never been able to see each other often like that, and we're still SO close.

But, now it makes more sense, I think. Even starting a simple fire requires ideal conditions. Whether the fire-starting is more or less complex than starting a relationship, I can't decide. It depends on what you think is complex.


See, that? ^ That is not how people explain things to me. And I know my mind should be adaptable, but I don't do well with the abstract. Somehow Seth and I got on the topic, the other night, and he told me that I'm very "black and white."

And it's not that I need things to be in the extremes. I understand middle ground perfectly, but I need to understand that it's middle ground, if that makes any sense.

People call me on it a lot, assuming that I want a definitive yes or no situation. They don't seem to get it.

That's been one of the things on my mind, lately, if I'm going to be completely open about it. It's a constant frustration, trying to explain that I'm not upset because I'm not getting a yes or no, but because I'm not even getting a perhaps, almost, or probably not (much less a why--some sort of purpose). It's enviable when people can look at a solution and not want to tear apart the process and inspect every element. It would certainly make me a better chemistry student if I could just accept reasonless fact.

Oh, thoughts! Everything has a catalyst, sure, but long after the provocation passes, the ideas remain. Minutes change years. Odd.

So, I wrote something.

So in a sense, you need solid colors. No gradients. :P Maybe not just black and white, but black and white and grey?
» randomjunk on 2011-03-29 04:28:33

Maybe you're an INTJ like me. I like how they explain it: "Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness."

I'm always like, "Ok, seriously, I can handle whatever you tell me, but just TELL me SOMETHING. And if it isn't a resounding YES, tell me what it is, and then let's figure out a new way to interact."

But anyway, maybe that isn't what you mean.

I also think, in terms of the long-distance thing, that it wouldn't be too bad to do long-distance with an established relationship, but starting a relationship that is already going to be long distance is kind of hard. Being fun and attentive and interesting for one weekend a month is very easy, writing texts or emails could be easy, but you don't actually know how well you would get along as a couple on a day-to-day basis. You could end up "dating" for ages and then when you finally get to be together, realizing that it just doesn't work. That being said, I also like a guy who lives far away! harharhar. It works out for me because I don't have time to do anything besides work anyway, so if he were actually in town, he would probably feel ignored. :P That's my really long comment for the day.
» Zanzibar on 2011-03-29 12:43:51

oh shit you changed the layout
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:50:17

havent read yet but i will INTJS ARE LAME YO INFJ FTW BABY WHOO
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:50:27

yeah you seem like an intj
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:51:51

who is this best friend not named jon btw
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:51:58

and why don't you see her that often?
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:52:04

you know what htey say.. 'absence makes the heart grow testicles.'
» undisputed on 2011-03-29 10:52:23

^^^^
My heart has testicles
» middaymoon on 2011-03-29 11:25:53

YOU BEAT ME TO THE RESPONSE ON MY OWN PAGE
» Unicornasaurus on 2011-03-29 11:34:35

BALLS HAHA
I love puns. I think I get it from my dad. When I told him the story about falling in chicken grease, he texted me later, "Happy fryday, (pun intended)."

thanks dad.
» Amelie on 2011-03-31 09:49:39

Prostitutes, naturally
and of course I beat you to it.
» middaymoon on 2011-04-01 12:12:12

HaHA!

Good eye.
» middaymoon on 2011-04-02 11:12:52

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