I have to admit, I miss it. I miss how the world used to be before it was turned upside-down by high school, and revelations from various people, and new people, and lost friendships...

I guess you could say I just miss loving certain people. As friends, that is. Then again, you can love someone without being in love, so maybe I miss...

Anyway. This one song I used to listen to, back in '06 made me start writing this. Everything was easier in middle school, and I know that sentimentality might be over by the time I'm fully grown, but...I don't care. I'm young now, and I know what I miss. It might have been complicated with the emotions of hundreds of new teenagers flying around, but there was a sort of peace that came with that tiny workload. And, none of my friends cared about who they were.

Now, it's like we're all such different people. It makes me wonder if I can ever be happy like that again. I guess if every love is different, then there could be different types of happiness...

-is not convinced-

Life's rough. People move on from each other so quickly, then their friendship turns into a pizza in the way that, when you cut a pizza, if more people want a slice, then it cuts into more tinier slices.

There are some people who are giving me a really nice-sized slice, though, like the ones at the pizza place in the galleria. Like Britney. She's such a loyal friend. I think people make the mistake of thinking loyal means...Iunno, clingy. But she's just there when I need her, and makes sure to every once in a while hang out with me one-on-one. I think I prefer her, too, because we hit the height of our friendship when I was happiest. Sometimes I think I should just do exactly what I did then, because I must have been thinking pretty clearly, back in the best days.

>.< I guess that's the long version of saying that I'm not happy, now. There have only been a few days when I have been, lately, and I don't even want to talk about that, right now.

It's just too complicated.

feel ya bro. this friend and i used to be very close and all of a sudden he cut all interaction with me and he didn't even show up on white day [valentine day after a month]. and i don't know why he did it...
» renaye on 2008-05-11 08:52:44

meow sista, i feel ya!
» renaye on 2008-05-11 11:51:08

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