Wow.

So, first of all, I am SO hoping what Kevin just asked me on isn't a date.

Because I'm not ready for that.

At least not with him.

I don't know. The bell in my mind isn't ringing right with him. I don't know why. I hope I remember to come back to this blog later and read it again, because...I just have a feeling.

Eh.

Something's not right.

I guess...it's partially the fact that he's...kinda into the whole alcohol thing. And some drugs. Erh. And since both my parents are pretty bad alcoholics, I'm kinda surprised I'm so tolerant.

Probably shouldn't be. Maybe that's part of why I'm not fully there with him. I can't exactly respect someone who does things like that to have a good time. It's not cool, to me. It's not something to relax, or to party with, or...whatever. Just, whatever it's used for, these days.

I don't think it's cool. I don't think it's right.

But most of all, if you're going to do it, don't act ashamed then keep going. I've seen people quit all sorts of substances. It's not easy--hell, when is anything truly easy, other than getting office supples from Staples?--but if you're so ashamed...

Bah. I don't know.

I've totally lost the drive to date randomly, in this case. I want the guys who won't do it because it just isn't worth it, in the end.

v.v

Ah, love.

I hate dating guys who just give up because it isn't worth it. Dating as in, going on dates, not being official.

re your comment: You make an excellent point, my friend, and that's just another pro to add to the list. The tattoo would be a wonderful judge of character. If someone wasn't tolerant of it, why should I date/be friends with them?
» bananaface on 2008-06-08 08:38:36

Really?
You didn't mention his abuse before...:P

Good luck with that, for real.
» middaymoon on 2008-06-08 12:56:36

I love your bit about Staples. X]
A coworker of mine has an "easy button" that says "Well, that was easy!" when you press it. We all love to set it off now and then.
» invisible on 2008-06-10 12:35:47

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