It's really weird--I didn't notice it was past midnight until just a moment ago.

@.@

I think it's come to the point where Stevie is kind of the timekeeper in my life; I usually don't look at the clock and just assume that, if he hasn't called, it isn't even 11 yet.

So tonight's...just...weird. It's going to be weird for a while. Two weeks, if you wanna put a number to it.

And even weirder yet: I saw Logan today. It was nice, but I guess he didn't find it as nice. "-sigh- I'm just ready for us to settle in with this friendship. You just looked so gorgeous today and it took everything within me not to hold you..."

And so I sigh.

It's not...good...to tell me these things, anymore. I'm his best friend. Platonic. Quite honestly, I'm surprised I'm not looking a him with Those Eyes, but at the same time...it makes sense. I've always been his best friend, and he's always been mine, but I guess for me, it never went beyond that. Not if I'm going to think about it honestly.

He's easy on the eyes--or, my eyes.

But I just can't have him as a boyfriend when I don't...have that sort of feel for him.

I don't know when I realized this.

Sometime along the way.



And I think while we were in the store I said something but told him I was just kidding, and I very distinctly heard him call me a bitch, and that hurt more than I could ever describe.

The Hurt joins The Hurter.

Exactly.
This is how I felt with Will.
I just realized it in the beginning. But it still hurt him, a lot.
» Steigenator on 2008-06-17 11:53:06

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