Things, they changed. I don't know what it is. Yet. I just know that there's something I'm missing, something that used to generate a lot of heat in the pit of my stomach.

I used to talk! I used to be witty, and hold conversations for hours with random people. I used to be happy!

I guess...I just...need some time to think. I'm too tied down with worries and thoughts about people. I just...need to look at the life behind all this. The freedom. The ability to come and go as I please.

Because life's so beautiful, without the pressure.

And so I'm turning back towards the arts. I've started drawing Chelsea, which I'll hopefully give her before I leave for Governor's School. I've made dream catchers and bracelets...plus, I've started making bags. Or, finding out how, at least. I need more materials to actually make them.

...Oh my word Kevin is going to get stabbed.

(One of you will especially groan at this one.)

(11:59:26 PM) Kagaboo: My alarm just started going off for no reason, btw.
(11:59:35 PM) Kagaboo: I've had it for four years.
(11:59:38 PM) Kevin: Wow.
(11:59:43 PM) Kevin: Just.
(11:59:46 PM) Kagaboo: Mhm.
(11:59:47 PM) Kevin: Randomly?
(11:59:50 PM) Kagaboo: Yup./
(11:59:54 PM) Kevin: Strange.
(11:59:55 PM) Kagaboo: So I changed the song.
(7/6/2008 12:00:09 AM) Kagaboo: Maybe I have a spirit around who doesn't like "My Name Is Jonas."
(12:00:16 AM) Kevin: Haha.
(12:00:20 AM) Kagaboo: -shrug- Might as well be welcoming.
(12:00:36 AM) Kevin: Could be your sister.
(12:00:38 AM) Kevin: *shrug*
(12:01:57 AM) Kagaboo: ...Oh my God don't say things like that.
(12:02:01 AM) Kagaboo: Frrealz.
(12:02:13 AM) Kevin: Watching Constantine.
(12:02:20 AM) Kevin: Couldn't resist.

Because my mum lost a child, which isn't something I like to broadcast, but I think that's kind of necessary to understand context.

>.<

So I...am not getting much sleep tonight, then.


EDIT: 5:26 a.m.

Britney and I were talking about emphasizing the wrong part of the sentence and how that changes everything.

(5:25:44 AM) Kevin: Thank YOU

Who the hell else are you gonna thank at 5:30 in the morning. Come on.

take a break and u will be able to look at life at another angle and i'm sure when u r back to reality .. u will be back to ur old self!! be happy!
» renaye on 2008-07-06 11:34:30

Yeah, actually, sad to admit, I finished reading every single xkcd comic just now... Pretty hilarious. One of my friends' moms lost two little girls when they were around two years old. She said sometimes she'd walk into my friend's room and my friend would be playing in the corner and talking to herself and her mom would be like, "Who are you talking to, sweetie?" and she would be like, "My sisters of course"

Creeeepy!
» Zanzibar on 2008-07-06 04:42:58

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